Love More.

Life is changing, and fast! It’s terrifying and exciting and soo unfamiliar. 

But I guess that’s kind of the point, isn’t it? 

Life would be way too easy if we already knew how exactly everything was going to play out, and if we had nothing to be scared of then we wouldn’t have to learn to be brave. 

Tomorrow my best friend leaves for college. Crazy, right? I am so excited for her. (And yes, slightly jealous.) But I can only imagine all the thoughts running through her mind. I think most are running through my mind too. 

New friends, new home, new town, new way of life.

I know she will be okay though. There are so many adventures to go on, so much to learn, and so many new people to meet.

I only hope that she will take advantage of it. Let life lead her.

Amazing things happen when you just let it be….That was when Rose found the Doctor and we all know of the adventures they went on together. I want that for her. 

We tend to put ourselves in our own little corner of the world with no intention to leave because of the familiarity and comfort of knowing. But where does that get us in life? Bored! Which is why I’m thankful that she’s leaving.

Of course I’m going to miss her. She’s been one of the best friends I have ever had. I tell her everything, and she tells me everything in return. Heck, we share a home. She takes care of my puppy. Loans me money when I need it. Let’s me cry on her shoulder. Watches and obsesses and cries over silly TV shows with me. Laughs with me. Yells at me. Tells me when I’m being an idiot. I guess you could say she’s more like a sister really. 

And I am so, so thankful for that. 

So D, as you move on to bigger and better things, my hopes are that you choose happiness above all else. Anything that doesn’t make you happy isn’t worth doing. Never choose broccoli over red velvet cake, my dear. 

Try new things. While you are gone, I will be living vicariously through you so you MUST be adventurous. Don’t be scared of embarrassing yourself, sometimes you need to let loose so other people can see the crazy awesome person that I see in you. 

Make new friends. Laugh often. Wear red. Go to some stupid football games. Flirt with boys. KISS boys. 

……..

EXPERIENCE LIFE. 

But mostly, know that I love you and will be here for you whenever you need me.  Never forget that, okay?

It Hurts, I Can't Do It Anymore!: Hey there, I feel like I can really relate to you but this is the...

freeandoutthere:

Hey there, I feel like I can really relate to you but this is the thing I really need some advice. Well I’m a lesbian and hardly anyone knows this, I’m scared that I’m not the person that everyone expects or wants me to be. If I do tell my friends and family, the truth is, I’m scared that I’m…

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coyotepornstar:

Same Love (feat. Mary Lambert)- Macklemore and Ryan Lewis  

A beautiful song about loving someone the same sex as you. 

We’re just like any other couple. We eat, sleep, breathe, and fart. Sometimes together and sometimes apart. [Hey, that rhymed!] 

We fight over money, the future, family and stupid shit that doesn’t mean a thing. 

We laugh together when something is funny and we cry when something is sad. 

It’s not rocket science. We’re just like any other couple. 

So what is it that makes people hate us so much?

I guess I’ll never understand how loving someone can be a crime, especially when you love them with all that you are. 

So why do people hate us so much? I could only think of a couple logical(ish) explanations:

1) It’s gross. 

Well, when you were little you thought kissing was gross- does that make it wrong? No, and you know why? Because you GREW UP. And guess what? It’s time to do it again ladies and gentlemen. Just grow up, it’s as easy as that. Turn your head and walk away. Because as important as your opinion is to me (not), I don’t think two people in love should be denied the fundamental right to marry simply because you think something is icky.

2) It’s not natural. 

Did you know that some 450 species and almost every culture studied throughout all of history has the presence of homosexuality? Cell phones, boob jobs, and face lifts however are only present in one species and only over the last 40 years or so. So tell me now, what is so unnatural?

3) It’s a mental illness.

http://www.apa.org/helpcenter/sexual-orientation.aspx ….’nuff said and screw you. [Also really interesting how people think that we have such dysfunctional, uncommitted and unhappy relationships. I have never been happier, more committed, or more natural feeling than when I’m with her.]

Then there is the whole religious tidbit which I don’t really feel like getting into but I will say this: LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE. Repeated over and over again in the Bible. KINDNESS KINDNESS KINDNESS. Repeated over and over again in the Bible. JUDGE NOT JUDGE NOT JUDGE NOT. Repeated over and over again in the Bible. 

I don’t judge your relationships and call them sinful even though I’m sure many of them are. So don’t judge mine.

I LOVE her. 

End of Story. 

I’m trying. 

With all my might, I’m trying. 

But the truth of the matter is this…

I need you. 

You’re my mom— My mommy. 

I’m your baby (not your wah wah baby but your baaaaaby!).

You’re all I’ve had all these years. You have the ability to make me and the ability to break me. The one who has always been there.The one who fought for me. The only person who can make me cry the way you do. 

I thought if you saw how happy I was that you’d give me a chance with her. 

And I know you saw it.

[I saw you seeing us.]

You know she was different.

[I know you know…]

SO WHY, whyy can you not let me be happy? Isn’t that what you’re supposed to do?

I need you, Mommy. I need you.

But I can’t keep fighting. I need out. Out of this “closet”, out of this HOUSE. 

And the fact that you’re not willing to fight to keep me here, makes me want out even more. 

I’m sorry, you know.

I’m sorry that I screwed up your perfect little family. 

I’m sorry that I fell in love with her. 

I’m sorry that I can’t change who I am. 

I wish I could be what you want me to be and trust me, I’ve tried. 

For five months, I TRIED.

I hope one day you will understand how badly I want you to be my childrens’ grandma but more than that how badly I want you to be my mom again. </3

I love you momma bear.

But not like the men’s underwear…

So pretty much shit ain’t good right now.

But my girl was trying to make me feel better on el telefono and here’s what she had to say…

“Well, on the bright side…I got Mighty Ducks on DVD.”

Me in my head:

YES! All my problems have gone away!

LMAO. 

I love her. 

I am so so so excited but at the same time totally freaking out because my baby boy is coming home to me tomorrow! The only boy that means anything to me in my life….my puppy! 

I can’t wait to cuddle him and love himmm. He’s all miney mine mine. 

Wish me luck, because as of right now, I have a one-month trial with him and if it doesn’t go well I have to find him a new home.

Basically because my mom is evil. 

But the surgery he had to have done went well, and will definitely damage my wallet big time but he’s worth it. He’s my baby and it feels so good to finally have him back. 

Love 

Love

Love 

Love himmmm. 

<3

[wish me luck]

notesfrominsidethecloset:

You’re my best friend and I know that I am yours.

I just hope some day you can accept my sexuality. 

Love,

Me

My biggest insecurity and struggle…

winterfaery:

Any one else notice how many times he says “like” in this speech?

He’s just so awesome.

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winterfaery:

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